'Your father told us that he was a practicing agnostic,' a former student of his once told me. He would start teaching a class and end up telling all sorts of anecdotes about places he's traveled to, things he's done. 23 years since he died and I'm still running into his students all over the world. 'I knew your father,' they tell me. 'He was very funny.'
My Dad, to me, was a gorilla of a man. That is, from the vantage of not being much higher than knee level when I was around four. I was fascinated when he shaved in the morning, and by the way he bounded up and down the stairs, or whistled as he tended to the orchids and the garden. He told off-color jokes in the car as we drove to Church on Sunday mornings. After a long day at work, he'd dispense with niceties, grunt and point at food on the table to be kindly passed over to him. 'What do you say...?' we'd giggle, four girls, prim and proper. 'Kanin', he'd growl--rice--brooking no dissent.
Many years ago, I smoked something that had a really strange effect on me. I regressed to my childhood. I spoke in an odd, high-pitched voice--which left my throat sore for hours afterwards-- in secondhand, international school English.
I was three at first, scared of the dark and not recognizing anyone around me. I talked about my family and how I so badly wanted to go to school with my sisters but wasn't allowed. As the night deepened, I grew up. Four, five, six, seven, eight. As I chattered about this and that, I would once in a while realize that something bad was about to happen. Something was coming.
Thirteen. I re-live knocking on our gate as usual. Tat-tat-a-tat-tat, tat-tat. May opens the door and starts weeping. 'Daddy died,' she barely manages to say. Heart attack. I push past her, asking 'Where's mommy? Where's mommy?' They were still in Ulan Bator. The phone keeps ringing. Arrangements were made to fly Dad's body back via Beijing. Mom would be home in a few days. Gay was on her way home from UP, Anna was still at school and didn't know what was happening. Anna was just eight years old.
At some stage, I retreat upstairs to my room, crack open my Biology textbook and read about earthworms, phylum Annelida, as if it were the most important thing in the world.
My Dad, to me, was a gorilla of a man. That is, from the vantage of not being much higher than knee level when I was around four. I was fascinated when he shaved in the morning, and by the way he bounded up and down the stairs, or whistled as he tended to the orchids and the garden. He told off-color jokes in the car as we drove to Church on Sunday mornings. After a long day at work, he'd dispense with niceties, grunt and point at food on the table to be kindly passed over to him. 'What do you say...?' we'd giggle, four girls, prim and proper. 'Kanin', he'd growl--rice--brooking no dissent.
Many years ago, I smoked something that had a really strange effect on me. I regressed to my childhood. I spoke in an odd, high-pitched voice--which left my throat sore for hours afterwards-- in secondhand, international school English.
I was three at first, scared of the dark and not recognizing anyone around me. I talked about my family and how I so badly wanted to go to school with my sisters but wasn't allowed. As the night deepened, I grew up. Four, five, six, seven, eight. As I chattered about this and that, I would once in a while realize that something bad was about to happen. Something was coming.
Thirteen. I re-live knocking on our gate as usual. Tat-tat-a-tat-tat, tat-tat. May opens the door and starts weeping. 'Daddy died,' she barely manages to say. Heart attack. I push past her, asking 'Where's mommy? Where's mommy?' They were still in Ulan Bator. The phone keeps ringing. Arrangements were made to fly Dad's body back via Beijing. Mom would be home in a few days. Gay was on her way home from UP, Anna was still at school and didn't know what was happening. Anna was just eight years old.
At some stage, I retreat upstairs to my room, crack open my Biology textbook and read about earthworms, phylum Annelida, as if it were the most important thing in the world.
by Gabriel U. Iglesias, undated.
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